Monday, June 14, 2010 (Day 142)

I’m not sure how I feel today.  I’m wearing skinny clothes, so I feel good.  But, I went clothes shopping on Saturday and everything I took into the dressing room was way too small.  So I’m not nearly as small as I think I am.  That was a bummer.  I allowed myself to eat what I wanted on Saturday too.  It was Connor’s birthday party.  I actually didn’t eat anything all day and the party was at 3:00.  They had healthy options that I was happy about.  But, I didn’t only stick to the fruits and veggies (that were both really good)!  I enjoyed a bratwurst and pasta salad.  And seconds of the pasta salad.  It was GOOD!  And potato chips and onion dip (which I brought to the party solely to get it out of my house so I wouldn’t eat it).  Lol.  That wasn’t bad.  I didn’t feel bad at all about eating those things.  But then I went home and ate a whole pack of graham crackers, some with chocolate frosting (it would have all been with frosting if we had vanilla).  Then I had a full bag of non-diet popcorn (extra butter).  And the kids shared their Sour Patch Kids with me (my favorite!).  I did bad because I started bad on Friday night.  Instead of just eating the stew that I planned to eat with the family (I decided not to because it had WAY too much sodium, and I needed to get rid of my grilled chicken), I had a salad with chicken on top.  That didn’t satisfy me at all.  So I ate a pack of graham crackers trying to find satisfaction.  Then a bag of popcorn (diet kind).  Oh, I also had a couple sodas on Saturday.  The scale is showing 175 today.  I assume that some of that is water weight from the sodium (popcorn, bratwurst, potato chips).  I did my Walk at Home video on Sunday.  Actually, I did it twice.  So I did 2 hours of good exercise yesterday.  I ate healthy.  I am sick.  I have a cold.  I couldn’t exercise this morning.  But I do plan to when I get home.  I went to bed at 8:30 last night so I’d get plenty of sleep and wake up and exercise.  But I woke up at 1:45 in the morning and couldn’t fall back asleep for the life of me.  It was after 3:30 before I finally fell back to sleep.  5:00 came and I couldn’t get up.  So I don’t know.