Wednesday, March 31, 2010 (Day 67)

I feel AWESOME today!  I enjoyed a personal pizza last night and stayed well within my calories.  I got on the treadmill, did my 5 minute warmup at 3 mph.  I stretched and got back on at my usual 3.5 mph.  About 10 minutes in I was feeling really good and decided I’d try jogging for a few minutes.  I was able to jog at 4 mph for 5 minutes.  I decided that I would jog for 5 minutes out of each 15 minutes (4 times total during the hour).  So I jogged a total of 20 minutes.  Walked at 3.5 the rest of the time.  It was really great.  I still hate jogging.  It still sort of puts pain in my knees (mostly my left one), but it’s good to know I can do it and still breathe.  Cayden and I stayed up ‘til midnight last night doing his book report, so there was no way I was waking up at 5 to exercise this morning.  So I have to do another evening workout tonight.  I hate it.  But I feel good that I’ve been doing it even when I have to skip the morning workout.  I had weight control oatmeal this morning instead of my Slim-Fast because it is snowing like crazy this morning and I’m freezing!  I got on the scale this morning.  I know, it’s become an awful daily habit.  I was reading my first posts on here yesterday and remembered that I said I would only weigh in once every four weeks.  Yeah, so much for that!  I just can’t do it.  I can’t even go a week.  Anyway, I’m down to 192.  That’s ahead of this week’s schedule, so I might allow myself a candy or two on Easter.  We’ll see.  Right now I’m feeling so good and I’m so motivated that I don’t even want a candy.  I can smell the 180’s and I’m LOVING it!  Next is 170’s!  And 160’s!  Dare I dream?

 

Tuesday, March 30, 2010 (Day 66)

The kids have been wanting pizza.  I’ve been NOT wanting pizza.  Actually, I should say that I’ve been wanting pizza so bad that I haven’t let it anywhere near our house, or us by it.  We have a can of biscuits in the fridge that I need to use somehow.  We have all the makings for mini pizzas, except pepperoni.  So I broke down yesterday and told the kids that we would make mini pizzas today when I get home from work.  Ray bought pepperoni and we’re set.  The kids are SO excited.  I, however, am sort of dreading it.  I figured up the calories and I can eat a mini pizza if I limit it to just a few pepperoni and don’t overdo it on the cheese.  Awesome!  I don’t have to eat something separate from the rest of the family.  But pizza to me has the effect of potato chips according to the commercial – I can’t eat just one.  I’m motivated though.  My other problem is that I hate waste.  The can of biscuits has 8 biscuits in it.  Me and the kids each eat one and that leaves 5 left.  I can’t throw them away!  It just occurred to me that I can bake them like pizza crust and freeze them!  That’ll work!  Great thinking me!  I wish we had veggie toppings I could put on my pizza.  I already ate all my green peppers and onions.  Maybe some mushrooms.  Oh, I have some green chilies left over.  That would be good.  I’m starting to not hate this pizza idea.  I’m glad I have been thinking about it and not just rush right into it and eat a dozen of them.  J

Monday, March 29, 2010 (Day 65)

I’m down to 194.  I was told by another co-worker today that I “look slim” in this outfit.  It would have been good if she hadn’t have said just in this outfit.  J  But whatever.  The only reason I can wear this outfit is because I’m losing weight.  So it’s all good.  I feel good.  I ate a lot yesterday for dinner.  And I ate 2 of my Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches.  But I don’t care.  Have no idea how many calories were in dinner.  Don’t care.  It was good.  I was hungry.  I did an hour and a half of Gilad on Saturday.  I think it’s good that I told my body last night that I’m not starving.  Easter is this coming weekend.  Don’t know how I’ll do with that.  We’re having a bbq at mom and dad’s and an Easter egg hunt.  Oh the candy!!!  I hope I can resist, but I LOVE Easter candy.  Especially peanut butter filled chocolate.  Yum!  I’m not going to let it worry me though.  And if I want a piece of candy, so be it.  I’m not going to stress about it.  I feel so great today.  And the fact that I lost 4 pounds last week means that even if I don’t lose any this week, I’ll still be on track.  But, I do plan to lose this week.  And I do plan to be strong this weekend.  I’m just saying I’m not going to stress about it.

Thursday, March 25, 2010 (Day 61)

I’m feeling pretty good today.  I got home last night and REALLY didn’t want to exercise.  I hate exercising when I get home from work.  I have worked all day, I don’t want to work more.  I want to lay on the couch and watch television, not exercise on the treadmill!  But, I did anyway.  My shoulder has been really hurting me.  Back when I was in one of my car accidents (I’m pretty sure it was the second one – on the freeway), I got frozen shoulder.  What happens is your shoulder starts to hurt.  It gets more and more painful and then it gets stiff.  The pain and stiffness continue to increase until eventually they’re so bad you can’t move your arm.  This freaked me out the first time.  When it hurt, I stopped moving it.  I iced it and rested it.  Well, that’s what led to not being able to move it.  Literally.  I rushed to the afterhours care and learned about the whole frozen shoulder thing.  When you feel pain you’re supposed to do stretches and therapy and keep in moving.  So I’m trying to do that, but it isn’t getting better.  Sometimes it’s worse, but it isn’t so bad I can’t move it yet.  So after the treadmill last night, I sat with the ice pack on my shoulder.  I also took a couple ibuprophen to help the pain and inflammation.  Don’t know why I started talking about frozen shoulder.  I did Gilad this morning.  He kills me.  This is an older video though, from the 80’s, so he isn’t as insane.  Actually, I think it’s because I did the cardio workout and not the toning.  I will try toning tomorrow.  The workouts are 45 minutes each.  So I did the warmup and then the cardio, then “rewound” to the beginning of the cardio and did 15 minutes of it over, then cool down.  So I got a full hour in.  I’ve really been wanting to go to Subway, but why would I eat a 300 calorie 6-inch sub for lunch when I’m just as full after a 200 calorie Slim-Fast?  Subway for dinner is good because I can eat a whole foot-long for 600 calories – and that’s how many calories I allow myself for dinner.  Tonight is going to be chicken marinara though.  Boneless, skinless chicken breast breaded in egg white and seasoned bread crumbs, baked, and topped with spaghetti sauce and mozzarella cheese.  Not too unhealthy, but not super low in calories too, so I need to drink my shake for lunch.  I do love Slim-Fasts though. On a side note, I’m wearing a skirt today that I haven’t fit into before.  It is beautiful and I love it!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010 (Day 60)

I got on the scale this morning.  Yes, I basically get on the scale every morning.  Even though I said I wouldn’t.  It said 195!!!  I can’t believe it!  195!!!  I guess that means the sodium is out of my body and I’m actually at 195!!!  It isn’t like I starved myself last night either – actually I ate a lot (spaghetti – no meat).  And Ray bought me a water bottle yesterday so I finally will be hydrated at work!  Hooray!  My last water bottle fell victim to a recliner and didn’t make it out alive.  I haven’t been drinking enough water for weeks since the incident.  Thanks to Ray for supporting my drinking habit!  195!!!

First Compliment!

I got my first compliment today!  I was in the lunch room filling my cup with water.  A woman from accounting asked, “Are you losing weight?”  I said, “Slowly.”  She responded, “You look good!”  Hooray!  A noticeable difference.  And I noticed today that Inge’s looking fatter and uglier than ever.

 

Cafe Rio

We wanted Café Rio last Friday.  I didn’t want to do what I did the first time and order it with no rice, no tortilla, no nothing!  So I ordered a Chicken Tostada instead of a salad.  I learned it’s the same only smaller.  And it has a corn tortilla in the bottom so I’m not tempted to eat it – I hate corn tortillas.  I got no sour cream, no guacamole, and no chip strips.  And I ordered it with the cilantro lime vinegarette dressing.  The dressing is so flavorful that I don’t even use the whole container and don’t feel deprived.  It was great.  Good amount of calories and didn’t feel like I was missing out!

 

Body Mass Index

I think the whole “Body Mass Index” is completely stupid.  I have always thought so.  How can they take a number and generalize that anyone that weight/height is overweight or obese?  According to their little chart, if I weigh more than 165 I am obese.  Not overweight, OBESE!  What?  I’m currently extremely obese because my BMI is 35.1.  30 is obese (to be 30 I’ll have to weigh 165).  According to the index, normal for me should be like 105.  What the hell ever!  Even when I’ve been my most fit, lowest weight, training for a marathon, I was at 135.  That is right at the line for “overweight”.  So stupid.  The only time I got close to 100 was when I was anorexic in high school.  I don’t know why I even looked at the chart.  I was curious.  Now I’m angry.  So stupid!

 

The Biggest Loser

My mom called me Friday to let me know The Biggest Loser was having auditions in Salt Lake.  I don’t know why I was offended so much – after all, she’s been bugging me about my weight since as long as I can remember.  I called my sister and told her not to answer the phone if mom calls her.  Yes, I know I’m fat.  No, I’m not 300 pounds – which is what you have to weigh (if you’re a girl) to be on The Biggest Loser.  If I were 300 pounds I wouldn’t have been offended, I would have tried out.  And no, I have nothing in life to do – sure I could take a few months to go to a ranch and do nothing but exercise!  I don’t have kids, a job, a husband, or anything else needing taking care of.

 

Monday, March 22, 2010 (Day 58)

I’m at 198.  I’m very proud of myself because I made chicken enchiladas yesterday for dinner.  Of course, that has a lot of cheese and a lot of sour cream.  Oh, and the onions and garlic are sautéed in butter.  And all the tortillas.  Well, I made mine a little different.  All I did was put a single tortilla in a pie pan.  Then I combined onion and garlic sautéed in NO butter.  I added green chilies (more than a single serving should have so I could have a lot of flavor).  Then I added the cooked chicken and just cream of chicken soup.  No sour cream, no cheese.  I put the chicken mixture on top of the single tortilla.  Then at the end of baking time I added a little cheese on top.  It was just as good as the real thing!  I didn’t miss anything and it worked with the calories I had available for the day!  I was so pleased!  I’ve been spending a lot of time worrying about how much weight I’m going to gain when we go on vacation at the end of May.  According to my calculations, I will weigh about 179 when we leave for vacation.  We have a LOT of restaurants planned already.  I’m going to try and order well, but if we go to a Diners Drive-ins and Dives joint and their specialty isn’t healthy, by golly, I’m getting their specialty.  And I’m going to try to exercise every day, but who knows how that will go.  I figure I’ll be up 10 pounds when we get back.  That’ll put me back at 190.  That sucks!  I want to stop worrying about it, but I can’t.  We’ll see.

 

Thursday, March 18, 2010 (Day 54)

I feel good today!  For the first time since the daylight savings change on Sunday, I was able to wake up this morning and exercise.  Yes, I have exercised this week, just not in the morning.  I skipped yesterday because Ray was home and awake and I wanted to get to bed early so I could wake up this morning.  I feel okay about that though because I did Gilad this morning and he kills me.  And Tuesday night I did the treadmill on a 6% incline at 3.2 mph.  It said I burned 150 calories more than my regular workout.  And I DIDN’T EAT PIZZA yesterday!  I’m wearing an outfit today that you can actually tell I’m thinner.  I like it!  I wish it was Friday because I’m sick of work this week – it’s finally slowed down enough that I’m not crazy busy – and I’m ready for the weekend.

 

Extra Fruit Sensations

According to The Biggest Loser, chewing Extra gum will help eliminate cravings and help you reach your goal.  Okay.  I bought some several weeks ago.  I don’t like chewing gum.  Call me lazy.  I bought watermelon flavor.  It is YUMMY!  But I still don’t like chewing gum.  Well, I just went into the kitchen to get pizza.  I gave up.  However, there were a couple people in the kitchen and I didn’t want them to see me eating pizza.  So I filled up my water cup, grabbed a carrot and a tomato and left.  I still want pizza.  I was going to wait for the people to leave and then go back for pizza.  But I realize having them there might have been my saving grace.  I have less than an hour here at work – I just need to go an hour without eating the pizza.  Then I remembered my gum.  So I just put a piece in my mouth.  If ever I needed help eliminating a craving it is now!  Heaven help me!

 

Veggie Dip

If you haven’t figured it out yet, I’m having a really rough day today.  Today also happened to be the monthly office birthday party.  They have cake and crackers with cheese, cinnamon rolls, veggie tray, all sorts of assorted treats.  I went in to get veggies.  I can certainly have that.  But I LOVE the dill dip that comes with the veggie tray.  I didn’t get any.  I’m sitting here eating raw carrots, broccoli, and cherry tomatoes.  I like them, but I keep longing for that dip!  Oh, and there is STILL pizza in the kitchen.  I opened it up just to see what kind.  Oh the smell!  I don’t know what to do with myself!  I am about ready to go home for the day just to avoid this food!

 

Pizza

I’m posting this in an effort to keep busy, but mindlessly so, that I may be able to stay away from the kitchen.  I mentioned they had pizza at the meeting I was to be at.  I mentioned it was possible there would be leftovers.  I went in the kitchen to see if there was leftover salad.  They usually get the pizza from Big Kahuna’s and there is a salad for each person.  And leftovers because not everyone eats their salad.  I was going to get one.  Instead, I see they got pizza from THE PIE!  THE PIE!  Did you hear me?  I said they got pizza from THE PIE!  Only the best pizza in the world!  I walked over to the boxes, lifted the lid, and immediately realized what I was doing and dropped the lid before I could get a whiff or glance at the pizza inside.  That was almost two hours ago and I haven’t been able to think of anything else since.  My water cup is empty.  I’m thirsty.  But I’m pretty certain if I go in there again I won’t be able to stop myself.  I’m feeling hungry.  Or do I think I’m hungry because I’m thirsty?  I want pizza!  I should eat a piece and get over it.  But one piece won’t be enough.  I’ll want to eat and eat and eat.  Oh me oh my I hate dieting!  The only thing that’s gotten me through this long is I saw Inge, her fat rolls oozing out of her clothes.  I don’t know why she insists on wearing stretchy spandex-like clothes that are 10 sizes too small for her.  Just cause it stretches and goes over your body doesn’t mean it’s supposed to.  I’m going to be skinny and she’s going to be fat.  That’s what’s keeping me away from the pizza.  Now I’m motivated to get water and not pizza.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010 (Day 53)

I’m having a really hard time this week.  It started because, as I mentioned, I ate chips and salsa Sunday and whatever else I ate.  I have realized this time that sodium (aka salt and highly processed foods) is a mean, mean, mean thing if you like to go by numbers on the scale.  I did some research yesterday to see how long it stays in your system.  It could be 3 to 5 days.  I weighed 200 pounds Sunday.  I weighed 204 Monday.   Obviously I didn’t eat 4 pounds worth of calories over the weekend.  1 pound tops.  I’ve been weighing every morning and I’m finally back down to 202 this morning, but dang it!  It’s messing with my phsychi.  How do you spell phsychi?  Anyway, I know it’s water weight that’s being held by my blood cells because of the sodium.  I know this.  And yet, I feel I should starve myself for a couple days to make it go away.  Actually, this week I’ve been wanting to just give up on losing weight all together.  As we speak I’m missing a meeting that I’m supposed to be at. Why?  Because they’re serving pizza.  I do NOT have the discipline this week to sit in that meeting, smell pizza for an hour, watch others eat pizza for an hour, and not eat an entire pizza myself.  In fact, just seeing the pizza hut commercial for 30 seconds makes me about run out and buy one!  I’ve been tempted to eat junk all week because I feel the scale hates me and isn’t showing my work anyway, why bother.  I know the sodium will leave eventually and I’ll be at my regular weight.  What will that be?  Will it be 200 still?  Will it be under 200?  It sure as hell better be under 200 or I quit!  I’m hoping for good things this coming Sunday weigh-in.  I better be 198!  But we’ll see.  In the meantime, I’m going to hope and pray there’s no leftover pizza that finds its way to the breakroom when I go refill my water.

 

Monday, March 15, 2010 (Day 51)

It’s been a while!  Work has been super busy.  That’s a good thing and a bad thing.  I ate far less calories each day last week than I should have.  This weekend I decided to make up for it.  Saturday I ate about 4 servings of lasagna.  Then I followed it up with peanut butter M&M’s.  Sunday I ate chips and salsa for lunch.  Then four pancakes for dinner with boysenberry syrup.  With butter, of course.  Then I didn’t want the garlic mashed potatoes in the fridge to go to waste so I fried them in butter to make potato pancakes.  Ate four of them also, with ketchup.  Did I mention they were fried in butter?  Oh yeah, and I enjoyed a couple of Ray’s sodas over the weekend also.  And I also followed my chips and salsa up with peanut butter M&M’s.  I was so sick last night.  And again this morning.  I’ve pooped out a good bit of it this morning, but man I feel like crap.  And I’m very bloated.  Why do I do this?!?  I weighed in at 200 Sunday morning, so I’m thrilled. I was hoping after limiting calories so much last week that it would be less, but whatever.  It shouldn’t be less.  I need to control myself better and get my 1200 calories each day.  I didn’t exercise all weekend.  But I did spend Saturday digging up bushes and crab grass.  I think that counts – I was completely sweaty and tired.  But no excuse for Sunday.  This morning was a no go because daylight savings clock changed yesterday, we lost an hour, and I didn’t go to sleep until 1:00 this morning.  Tonight I’ll be on the treadmill.  I look forward to getting back on track this week and feeling better!

 

Monday, March 8, 2010 (Day 44)

I am still in shock over this week’s weigh-in.  I am at 202.  I didn’t believe it, but I weighed myself Saturday night, Sunday morning, and again this morning.  All 202!  That means by this time next week I’ll be UNDER 200!!!!  I am so excited.  That means this week I will have lost 25 pounds!  I’m trying to live in the moment and not focus on the fact that I still have 65 more pounds to lose.  I feel a lot better than I did 6 weeks ago.  I’m thrilled with my progress!  I’m sore today because yesterday I did Gilad (he kills me) for an hour, then I did yoga for 30 minutes.  Then I walked on the treadmill at a 6% incline for 30 minutes.  Not to mention all the house cleaning I did this weekend!  Holy bananas!  But the house is spotless, I ate well all weekend, I exercised, I feel so great!  I didn’t wake up and exercise this morning though.  The kids were fighting all night and kept waking me up until about midnight.  5 a.m. came way too soon.  I’ll do the treadmill tonight after I work in the yard a little.  Ray works tonight, so there’s nothing to stand in my exercising way.  I feel thin.  It’s funny that at 200 pounds I can feel thin.  I wanted to take update pictures this weekend to post on here, but I couldn’t find my black swim suit that I wore in the last pictures.  It wouldn’t be a good comparison with me wearing a flowered print swim suit.  I think it might be in a bag out in the shed.  Hopefully I’ll find it this week and get update pictures on here.  I plan to post new pictures with every 25 pounds lost.  Go me!  I say Hillshire, you say Farm.  Hillshire.  Farm.  Go meat!

 

Thursday, March 4, 2010 (Day 40)

I feel so awesome this morning!  I weighed myself – DON’T JUDGE ME!!! – and I’m down to 206.  Sure, that’s only 1 less than I was a couple weeks ago, but I gorged for a week.  I’m still proud.  206.  I’m so close to breaking that stupid 200!  I can’t wait!  I exercised this morning.  Love Leslie Sansone’s Walk at Home.  Then I came in to work and there was an email from the boss saying, “Thanks for the documents. Excellent job!”  Okay, I know he likes me and appreciates my work and thinks I do well – but he’s never actually said it so flat out.  It made my morning.  A show of appreciation is always a good thing!  And I’m down to 206.  J  I went to Wal-Mart last night and bought “weight control” oatmeal (it has a ton of fiber and extra protein).  I ate that for breakfast.  It has about 20 calories less than my Slim-Fast.  I think it will keep me full just as long.  We’ll see.  And I was going to buy my Fiber One bars, but I saw Fiber Plus bars.  It’s “plus antioxidants”.  They have a little less calories, more fiber, less sodium.  All around better nutritional chart and the box says “Better tasting than Fiber One.”  I love the taste of Fiber One bars (the chocolate kind and the peanut butter kind).  So I got the same kinds, just the Fiber Plus instead.  We’ll see how I like them.  I need something at work like that for when I get super hungry and it’s not breakfast or lunch time.  Go me!

 

Wednesday, March 3, 2010 (Day 39)

I find myself subconsciously trying to make up for last week.  I have been limiting my calories to about 600 calories per day this week.  Obviously that’s not good.  It’s not that I set a caloric number and try to stick with it.  It’s just that I drink my Slim-Fasts, avoid snacks (even healthy veggies) and then when dinner comes around I hate to eat a lot of calories and feel guilty, so I eat a 200 calorie can of soup.  So I end up at less than 600 calories for the day.  I was starving this morning and last night, so I decided to go to Subway for lunch and skip the Slim-Fast.  I ate a 6 inch turkey on wheat, no cheese.  280 calories.  I figure I’ll eat the other 6 inches for dinner tonight.  That will get me to 800.  I can’t convince myself to eat any more than that.  Maybe I’ll eat dinner early (on the way home) and then eat some veggies later on in the evening.  At least get me to 900 or 1000 calories for today.  Oh, and I put the treadmill on an incline for the very first time this morning.  Granted, I started at .5% incline just to try it out.  I did the last 30 minutes of my workout on 1% incline (and 3.3 mph).  I thought my shins would kill me because they have been the last couple days – but they didn’t bother me at all.  I feel good.

 

Tuesday, March 2, 2010 (Day 38)

Good news!  I got home last night and DID exercise for an hour.  I also weighed myself (after dinner, so I figure the weight I lost in sweat was put back on with water and dinner) before bed and I am at 209.  I knew at least a portion of my 212 was bloat, but I didn’t know how much.  I’m THRILLED that my week of binging and finding any excuse to eat out, eat more, buy ice cream and multiple packs of Reese’s peanut butter cups, etc., only ended up putting an extra pound on me.  Of course, it’s actually about four pounds because I could have lost 2 or 3, instead I gained 1.  But I don’t care about that.  Not when I originally thought it was a lot worse.  My cold must have burned a lot of calories.  I didn’t wake up and exercise this morning, but I plan to be on the treadmill during The Biggest Loser.  I’m glad I’m pretty much back on track.  The exercise will come as I get more sleep.  I’m just happy I’m content with my Slim-Fasts again.

I'm Mean

I’m awful.  And I don’t care.  I just overheard Inge getting in trouble for losing her boss’ time.  That’s a big deal.  There’s no way to get it back.  She better find it.  Why do I find myself feeling pleasure at her misfortune?  It reminded me that one of my main motivations is making her jealous.  I want to be thin and look hot so every single time she sees me she realizes that she’s an old, fat, bitter hag.  Viola, I’m motivated to eat well tonight.  And exercise in the morning.  J  Hey, I already admitted I’m awful, no need to come at me!  What works for me works for me.  I can only fight my genetics so much – and I choose to fight my weight, not my personality. 

Feelings...Nothing More Than Feelings...

I’m bored at work.  I have a headache.  I want to go home.  That being said, I figured I’d ramble on here a bit about my feelings about the last week.  I don’t know what I want to say about it, but I hope that somehow writing will make me realize something.  And by “something” I mean how it happened, how I get back on track, and how I keep it from happening again.

As you know, I caved Sunday and Monday.  Fine.  Tuesday is when I woke up sick.  I guess I figured that since I’d messed up the week already, it didn’t matter.  I couldn’t exercise.  I’ve decided exercise is a big part of keeping me eating well.  Who wants to eat crap and extra calories when you worked so hard to wake up early and exercise?  And, at the same time, eating right makes me want to exercise.  It was hard for me to get back on track this morning, but I’m happy to say that I think I did it.  Eating-wise anyway.  I drank my Slim-Fast for breakfast and lunch.  I didn’t exercise, but I’m feeling good.  I used the bathroom a few times today and got rid of a bunch of the bloat I felt from last week.  I think that now that I’ve eaten right for a day that I’ll be motivated to exercise tomorrow.  I already know that I feel better when I eat well.  But I didn’t realize that the bloated feeling would keep me from exercising. 

March 1, 2010 (Day 37)

I got a cold last week.  I was also on the rag last week.  I couldn’t breathe, and therefore didn’t exercise last week.  I felt like poop so I ate to make me feel better last week.  I gained 4 pounds last week.  I’m having a really hard time getting back into the swing of things now.  I’m still a little stuffed up, but I was planning to do light exercise this morning.  Didn’t wake up to my alarm.  Was an hour late for work.  I did drink a Slim-Fast for breakfast instead of stopping for something yummy.  That’s a start.  Maybe I’ll go on the treadmill this evening.  Probably not since Ray is off work tonight.  Anyway, I thought about giving up the whole diet thing altogether, but I’m slowly convincing myself that’s not the right thing to do.  So I lost a week.  Who cares?  Maybe my body will be good to me and lose 9 pounds again this week, like it did week one.  Maybe I’ll at least drop the 4 I gained, plus an extra.  We’ll see.  I just want to get back on track.  I started taking vitamins last week though because I realized I haven’t been getting what I need – no wonder I got sick.  Poor immune system.