Friday, April 2, 2010 (Day 69)

I went Easter candy shopping after work last night.  I spent about 30 minutes in the Easter candy aisle at Walmart.  Dangerous for someone trying to lose weight.  The things that REALLY called to me were the peanut butter/chocolate mixes.  YUM!  And the gummies.  Love them both!  I can do without plain chocolate and without nasty peeps.  But I love Reese’s and fruit snacks/gummy bears.  I didn’t buy anything for me.  I was proud.  I hadn’t eaten anything since my Slim-Fast 6 hours prior.  I hadn’t exercised that morning, so I knew I had to get on my treadmill.  I never eat before working out.  Yuck.  When I slack in the morning I come home from work, make the kids dinner, work out on the treadmill for an hour and then make my own dinner.  Well, I made the kids pizza pockets (two slices of bread, pizza sauce, cheese, and pepperoni, put together like a sandwich and toasted in the sandwich press thing.  I was ravenous hungry.  I was going to buy beef jerky at the checkout at Walmart to hold me off until dinner but they were out on my aisle.  I ate a few pepperonis while making their pockets.  Then I decided I was starving and could have a piece of bread.  So I smeared some sauce and pepperoni on a slice of bread and ate it.  More like devoured it.  Then the kids didn’t eat all of their pockets.  Heaven forbid it should go to waste when I’m starving to death.  I’ll just have a bite, I told myself.  One bite turned into a whole sandwich.  Then another half.  I felt awful about it when I was done.  I had caved.  It’s been a while since I caved.  When I got to thinking about it, I actually didn’t go over my calories.  Not that it was healthy, but it wasn’t over my calories.  And it made exercising REALLY hard.  My stomach didn’t like me on the treadmill.  I had to really work at going my normal pace last night.  Ug.  Now I remember why I don’t eat dinner before getting on the treadmill.  And, if you’re wondering, I did NOT buy the kids peanut butter/chocolate stuff.  I knew I couldn’t bear THAT temptation this weekend!